Eyes

He knew whatever was happening was inevitable and he could not stop it no matter how much he tried. In fact he did not want to stop it in the first place no matter how painful it was for everyone. He was there all the time not looking into her eyes. He was deliberately avoiding eye contact because he knew whatever he will witness in those eyes will make him weak. He did not like this feeling of weakness and that is why all his life he tried to be away from things which made him feel that way. It was this fear of becoming weak, which made him avoid falling in love with anything or anyone and whomsoever made him feel that way he tried to stay away from them. No matter how much he tried to control his life, there were always things he could not control. This was one such situation and the only thing he could do to avoid this sense of weakness was by avoiding looking into those eyes and deny the feelings he so much knew those eyes would have wanted to say. In order to do so he was keeping himself busy with other stuff. Shifting things from one place to another even when it was not required. Catering to other people even when he knew they could take care of themselves. Even going to other room where he could not see her. All that just to avoid looking into those eyes.



Finally she was to leave. He knew she would have wanted to see him one last time. In between all that denial, he also wanted to see her before she left. Finally he came in front of her. He tried to talk without making an eye contact. Finally when she was inside her car he was standing outside talking to her through the window. He suddenly felt like touching her one last time, just to make himself believe that she was real. He peeped inside through the open window, touched her hand and told her to take care of herself. The moment he was getting his head out of the car he for a moment looked into those eyes. Those eyes were saying, "Don't! don't let me go." That is when the car started moving and he was standing still staring at the car going away. That is when he felt the weakest in his life. That is when tears dropped from his eyes.